Love and Lies

You never left when I asked, you left when I told you not.
I wanted you back but you can’t hear my cries.
Because you’re never around!
I wanted to believe your lies, I loved you so but you knew….
the fastest way to my heart was through my chest.
nigh after night I wondered if you were faithful.
I went through hell just for you, and your lies.
and when I say I wish I never met you…
I mean it from the bottom of where my heart was.
Goddamn the pain, the stinging in my chest..
it never went away, now I must live with it forever.
and even in death I’m reminded how I wanted to die, for you and your lies.
days without you felt like years, and every day I wanted to die.
yet I’m glade I didn’t, I see now it would have been a waste of life.
day and night I awaited your return, remained faithful to my words.
in the process losing all now i have nothing but this band….
thanks for all who tried to help and fuck the ones who pissed me off.
some say i need a bible and i say they need a doctor.
I never saw your god so why should I believe in him?
I am who I am there’s shit you can do about it.
I am loved for who I am and not my acting.
Fuck you, you cannot change me.
come out and say you hate me, i don’t give a fuck anymore…..

Written in 1999, exact date unknown.

~ by Dez Minogue on Friday 1 January, 1999.